P.I.!

Dalawang araw nakong nakakaramdam ng galit at sakit para sa isang kaibigan at buti na lang talaga, wala akong internet kagabi dahil baka kung anopa ang maisulat ko dito... Tangina talaga! Nanggagalaite na naman ako sa galit. Kagabi pa ako naluluha sa galit at wala akong mapagbuntungan kundi ang blog na 'to. Shit! Di ko magets ba't ganto ako ka-affected pero na-realize ko rin na kaya ako ganto ka-affected dahil may halong disappointment akong nararamdaman. Shet talaga. I'm sorry. Mahirap lang talagang makarinig ng iyak mula sa kaibigan sa telepono tapos nasa malayo ka at wala kang magagawa, wala kang maiu-offer na solusyon. Siguro kaya ako ganto ka-affected dahil kasabay ko sa paglalakbay ang kaibigan ko at kahit di siya nagsasalita alam ko ang pinagdadaanan niya ngayon (at pinagdaanan niya noon), at di ko talaga maintindihan kung bakit napakadali lang sa iba na patayin....hay naku, yoko na. Gusto ko nang i-censor sarili ko. Shet talaga, tangina! I just hope people really practice what they preach and I would really really REALLY like to believe that the intentions are sincere and not to protect their own selfish interests! Shit! I love you Yano for your first hit single! PI ka Poncio Pilato! Nasan ka "humanity" and forgiveness? Tama na. Tama na...

Random Vacation Thoughts!

• Dahil sa kangaragan sa mga araw bago ang Pasko, parang di ko maramdaman ang Pasko this year. Sana maka-recover din ako in time for New Year.
• I realized na kailangan ko talaga ng mga alone mode minsan. Madali akong magsawa. Ayokong masyadong ma-attach.
• Tuwing umuuwi ako samin, tumatanda ang itsura ng parents ko. Lolo at lola na talaga sila. Nalulungkot ako dun. Sana wag muna silang dapuan ng pang-matandang sakit.
• Mahirap ang buhay namin sa probinsiya. Walang kotse. Maliit ang bahay. Walang internet connection. Napakasimpleng pamumuhay. Pero bakit walang stress? Bakit napakamasayahin pa rin ng mga tao? Di ba yun naman ang hinahangad nating lahat na pupuntahan kaya tayo nagpapakahirap sa trabaho?
• Gusto ko na talagang mag-worry. Kasi kailangan ko na talaga ng trabaho next year. Pero as usual, tinatamad na naman ako kahit mag-isip lang ng options. Gusto ko munang mag-relak. Sana di ako mag-kolap.
• Gusto ko talagang pumunta ng Dakak! Ugh! Natatakot ako sa gastos pero gusto kong pumunta! Dapat last year pa ‘to pero dahil sa pagiging adik sa kaiisip sa isang tao sa Maynila, di ko naasikaso. Ngayon naman, wala nang ganun kaso wala naman akong pera. Argh!
• Kainis, nasira bisikleta ko. Pagbibisikleta ‘round town ang exercise ko dito e. Kung nakita n’yo You Tube ko, naimmortalized pa pagbibisikleta ko habang kumakanta ng Weezer. Hahaha! Gusto kong bumili ng bago na hindi pambata (binili ko kasi yun para sa pinsan ko) pero napakabigat na sakin ngayon ang magwaldas ng 2 o 3 kiyaw considering na nagagamit ko lang naman siya tuwing bakasyon. Nainis pako kasi wala akong nadalang gym shorts. Breeze walk na lang sana. Hay.
• In other words, tumaba ako dito. Lang laging ginagawa kundi kain at tulog at nood ng TV at maglaro ng Gameboy at... In less than a week, lumobo ang tiyan ko. Eh dati nang lobo ‘yun e.
• Nagplano kami ng mga elementary batchmates ko kagabi for our annual reunion. Bakit napakalungkot? Ang konti na lang namin. Kung saan na napupunta ang iba – OFW sa ibang bansa, nagtatrabaho sa ibang bahagi ng Pilipinas at walang pera pang-uwi, ang iba naman meron nang mga asawa’t anak kaya di na pwedeng maki-gimik, atbp. Ang saya dati e.
• Nami-miss ko rin ang mga high school classmates ko. Kaso nasa kabilang island sila. Kapagod at ang gastos pumunta. Kaya ko naisip ang Dakak kasi a decade ago (a decade ago, ugh!) pumunta kami run. Wala kaming pera nun pero masaya kami. Meron na kaming konting pera ngayon. Siguro naman mas magiging masaya siya.
• Sana ma-inspire ako at makapag-isip ng mga kwento habang nandito. Kaso masyado akong zen, er, tamad-tamaran mode dito.
• Sana mabasa ko naman ang mga librong dinala ko dito. Laging nasa sked ko na magbasa pero di ko nasusunod sked e. Pati na rin mga DVDs.

Dampa Birthday Dinner!

The day after my birthday, I treated my other friends to dinner in Dampa, Ortigas. Honestly I was nervous because I had no idea how it'll turn out. Aside from the obvious fact that I'm not used to hosting dinner, I also wasn't sure how my friends will interact considering most of them are going to meet each other for the first time. To give you an idea, the people I invited were my provincial friends, my college friends, my Internet friends, my MDAFI classmates who aren't part of Bugaw staff and my ABS-CBN friends. Also, my ABS-CBN friends don't necessarily know each other since they're people I met while working in various TV shows.

Henry told me to relax and in the end, I discovered that I didn't have anything to worry about. My friends got along perfectly well, some even bonding over topics like children and marriage. (Ugh, this is my first birthday wherein my married friends brought their kids. I am really getting old! :D) It also helped that the food was great and we were all hungry.

Here are some of the pictures! (The rest, in my Multiply!) :)

Posing bago kain!


Blowing the candle!


My friends from various shows of Lolo!


Pa-cute with Emman!


College blockmates!

December 19, 2007!

Sa aking ika-28 na kaarawan, nag-shooting muna ako ng Bugaw sa umaga. Naging clapper, service driver, art department member at "construction worker" all for the love of Mamaaah! :) Ni-return ko rin ang love ng mga classmates ko sakin. Ako na ang nagbayad ng catering services ni Ate Inday pagkatapos ng shoot para kahit papano, nai-celebrate ko ang birthday ko at nailibre ko naman sila. Sana ay nag-enjoy sila sa munting salu-salo.

Pagkatapos ng shooting, kelangan pang pumunta sa isa pang obligasyon - ang Star Cinema Christmas Party. Di naman ako nagsisi dahil bukod sa nanalo ako ng 1,000 pesos cash prize sa raffle (Monj, update mo ha!), nag-enjoy rin ako sa sayawan kasama ang aking co-scholars na tinuturing ko na ring mga matalik na kaibigan.

Kung sino man ang nagsabing di enjoy ang birthday pag walang pera, mali sila. Basta't kasama mo lang ang mga taong malapit sa 'yong puso ay ayos na.

I love you guys! :)

Mas marami sa Multiply ko pero heto ang ilan sa mga pictures.

Hapiberdi to me!

Sarap ng bibingka ni Inday!

Ganda ng ngiti ni Monica!

Zen jump!

Zumi-zirkoh!

Open House!

Nag-open house ang school namin last December 18. Me thanksgiving mass, musical performance ng Kontragapi, dinner party at film screenings ng Endo (starring our very own Rina) and other student films. Andaming who's who na dumating. (Sa totoo lang, kating kati akong magpa-picture kay Raymund Red kaso bigla akong tinablan ng hiya. Haha!) Pero kaming mga "lungkatu", me sariling mundo. Kodakan lang sa tabi.

Heto ang ilan sa mga pictures. :) (Mas marami sa I, Multiply!)

Iggy & Jell sa reception area

Cesarina loveteam!

Kahit pagod, kodakan pa rin ang mga lungkatu!:)

Ang Pagsubok!

Sino ba naman ang makapaniwalang nag-bida ako sa short ni Danna last Sunday! "Ang Pagsubok" ang title ng short at parang pagsubok rin sa akin ang pag-arte. Haha! Sabi ni Henry, nominated na kami ni Monjam sa Razzies for Worst Actor of the Year! Hahaha! Pasensiya na Danna ha! :)

Pero kahit mahirap umarte sa harap ng kamera, oo na, di na ako magpapakaplastik, enjoy maging bida! :)

Heto ang ilan sa mga pictures na kuha sa mga camera nina Au-Au at Winnie!

Ang hirap tingnan ang sarili sa monitor!

Ang bida (ako! haha!) at ang kontrabida!

Camwhore habang break!

Mas maraming letrato sa I, Multiply! :)

Christmas Dinner with College Friends!

Had some sort of mini-reunion with my college blockmates last Saturday night. We met for an early Christmas dinner in a resto in Serendra, The Fort. (Sorry, I can't remember the resto's name! T'was my first time there you see! Hehe! :P). After dinner we went to Gen's condo in Makati to eat dessert and continue making "chika". Too bad I had to leave early because of an early morning call time for a shoot. (Later the shoot got packed up because the director and the AD arrived late. UGH!)

Our reunion may be brief but it was an enjoyable evening nonetheless. I'm already looking forward to meeting you again, girl friends! Hehe :)

Here are some of the pictures.


Juvy, Rose, Ros & Gen!


Juvy & I!


Dessert in Gen's condo!

More pictures in my Multiply account!

Ericsson!

Here are some of the pictures from the shooting of my first short exercise "Ericsson". Thanks Ella, Au-Au and Winnie for the pics and thanks everyone for the memories! :)

Preparing the first scene

Only the best for my Video Assist and Camera!

The slate!

Ella cries!

It's A Wrap!

More pics in I, Multiply!

Being!

These are some of my pictures during our our 6-day Intro to Acting Workshop with Direk Laurice Guillen and Sir Johnny Delgado. Even if I'm not an actor, the experience was definitely unforgettable. I now understand "the craft", the importance of "being" and the shooting protocol when it comes to directing actors. More than these though, I rediscovered myself more as I've to dig varied feelings from life's memories. I also discovered a lot about my classmates (that includes our guest classmate Marc Abaya) which I never learned before and consequently, learned to trust them about certain private matters that I normally wouldn't disclose. In a way, the workshop was therapeutic for me and needless to say, it made the class bond stronger.

If you're interested to discover for yourself what I'm talking about, just regularly visit mdafi.com as Direk Laurice and Sir Johnny will offer the full Eric Morris course next year.:)

The class with Direk Laurice and Sir Johnny!

Wrong choice

Revelation si Mamaah dito! :)

More pictures in I, Multiply!

I Am 28!

Unlike my past birthdays, steady lang ko this year. Wala kasing moolah. Hehe. Tsaka 'yun na nga, sa dami ng ginagawa sa school (shoots, shoots, shoots!!!), wala nang oras para mag-celebrate. Ewan ko rin pero parang di ko masyadong nafi-feel na birthday ko today. Must be because tumatanda nako o baka pagod lang o baka rin nga dahil madaling araw pa naman. Pero siyempre, kahit walang pera, nagpapasalamat pa rin ko sa Diyos dahil andami pa ring blessings na binigay niya sakin. Andiyan na ang PBB 2, Big Love (di nako maki-credit dahil nag-quit nako at super major revision) and most especially itong Director's Training Program na pinaka-highlight talaga ng 2007 ko. I love you Lord! Pasensiya na kong nakakalimutan kong makipag-usap sa 'yo paminsan-minsan pero mahal talaga kita at lahat ng natatamasa ko ngayon, inu-offer ko sa 'yo.

Inaantok nako kaya di ko alam kung anong gusto kong punto ng entry na 'to. Gusto ko lang magsulat tungkol sa birthday ko bago matulog.

Ah yun pala, mag-isa lang ko sa kwarto at nagi-internet when the clock struck 12. Later, bumaba rin ako para kumain ng chocolate cake na regalo ni CF. Nandun sina Rose at Monj, nagha-heart to heart talk tungkol sa kanilang mga pusong sawi. Mas na-realized ko lalo na napaka-blessed ko upon seeing them. Hahahahaha. Joke lang Monj & Rose! Naging sawi rin naman ako (asus, naaalala ko pa mga emo moments ko last year and early this year) pero siguro, natutuwa lang ako na ngayong 28 nako, parang I find contentment na when it comes to matters of the heart. Di na ko naghahanap ng nyowa. At peace nako sa sarili ko. Diyan pa lang, maligaya nako.

Inaantok na talaga ko. Can't wait to see what's going to happen for the rest of the day. Basta pag nakita n'yo ako, wag kayong sumigaw pag bumati ng happy birthday. Alam kong bulgar akong tao pero believe it or not, naaasiwa ako pag lahat ng mga tao nakatutok sakin. O di kaya lahat ng tao, mabait sakin. Haha. Weird talaga ako. :)

Ayt. Period na.

Thanks Team Ericsson!

Thank you guys! :) Words can't fully express the gratitude that I feel for all of you. Actually, hanggang ngayon, parang bangag pa rin ako. I still can't believe I'm already done and did it without major problems, and it's all because of you. (Parang kanta ng U2! Hehe :D) My friend Rose, who was also very selfless to go just to be talent, later told me na ambabait ng mga classmates ko. Of course I know that already but experiencing the goodness incessantly just makes me teary-eyed. I feel so blessed to be in this program with you.

Sigh! :) I'm already looking forward to the next shoots!

AD!

Yey! :) I'm done with my 2 assistant director jobs for our first short exercise. I assisted Direk Nick for "Waiting" and Miss V for "Red Sneakers" (yep, that's the real title of her short according to her.) Both of them finished their shoot on time which makes me more nervous. I mean, I worked as AD in shorts that did not exceed allotted shooting time of 4 hours, but what if I can't finish shooting my short within 4 hours? Ugh! Friends, please pray for me!

Right now, I'm trying to focus myself for my shoot on the 13th (I still need crowd talents. Text me please, if you're free! :D). On the 14th and 16th naman, I'm going to act for Dan and Danna's shorts (I need a separate prayer from you friends for these two! Hehe). Hopefully, it's vacation already after that!

Anyway, here are some of my pictures during the two shoots. Thanks to Mathieu duuuude and Mariami duuuudette for the pics! :)

Red Sneakers cast & crew

Duuude!

Miss Ina, ito po ang mangyayari..

More pictures in I Multiply!

Eyeball!

Flirtation drill. Line of vision. X blocking. No artificial lights. No sounds. No camera movement. Artificial location. Limited shooting time. Not more than 6 set-ups. Newbie cast and crew. Star Cinema. Tiffany. Cheezy. Squeezy. =)

Super thanks to Dess of Advance Class for editing!

Help!

Oist, are you free on December 13? I need help for an exercise I'll be doing for class. I need crowd talents. If you're free and willing, kindly send me a message . Please! :) The more, the "many-er"! Hehe.

Thanks.