Our brainstormed youth drama concept has just been approved by the bosses. It is something to be proud of for me ‘coz the show we have in mind, while NOT a breakthrough concept is different from the usual crop. We want our youth show to be as real as possible – not pa-cute yet not soapish. Now if we can support that into writing or more importantly, if we can sustain that when the ratings come out, still remains to be seen. Based on my past mainstream TV/movie writing experience, the key is not to get too attached. Everything will all boil down to business eventually.
I’m still adjusting, of course. Yeah, I know I still have a lot of things to learn about good screenplay writing but more than this, I’m still adjusting to my new work. I got used to the fast-paced no-nonsense work of movie production I easily get irritated when we work in a snail and O.C. pace. I’m also still adjusting, not only to our head writer (I’m slowly getting comfy with him, not yet fully but getting there hopefully) but also to the other members of the creative team. I don’t know. Maybe it’s because my personality is just different from them. Or to use that hackneyed term again, we don’t share the same wavelength. I don’t know. I don’t really fit the typical writer image so maybe that’s another reason. Good thing my friend Emman is already part of the group. His presence makes it easier for me. Really!
Tomorrow, the team’s going to rest. This should have been good news since I’ve been working non-stop since last week (after the All My Life shoot wrapped up, I went straight to work for the youth show) and I’m down with cold and sore throat (must be the weather, or I’m really mentally and physically drained.) Yet, I’m not resting tomorrow coz I said yes to the movie writing offer. Michiko and I are going to meet to think of a storyline for the premise presented by the project’s film director. I’m not that confident with the premise but I don’t have the right to say that the premise sucks. I said yes to the offer which means I should work things out.
What’s bugging me is the fact that I’m accepting all these offers without understanding why I’m accepting them in the first place. I mean are these really what I want? Or am I just too hungry for money after a hard-up year? I don’t know. I still haven’t gotten to think things over. I really am clueless to what I’m doing. Totally clueless! Totally fucked up!
I wanna go home.