I just had a chat with a friend that lasted till early morning where I realized how olats I am when it comes to courtship. I've observed how the relationship of the two has evolved and wala akong masabi but bow ako sa style niya. It's very simple actually pero hindi lang nagagawa ng karamihan sa atin because we're overpowered by our emotions. Wanna know what?
He offered friendship.
'Yun lang. Madali sabihin di ba? Pero mahirap gawin para sa iba kasi 'yun na nga, nadadala na sa bugso ng damdamin (lalim!) at nang hindi na makapagpigil, they push themselves too hard to the "friend" who by then will feel betrayed by their actions.
I'm in awe actually with how my friend did it and he's always been saying to me before pa na sa friendship raw talaga dapat magstart. (That's how his past relationships started and even with this current one, he never admitted his love first.) Now, they're super best of friends and while di pa sila official, nothing can beat their sweet text messages to each other. Panalo! :) I mean, how much more pag sila na which I think will happen sooner. In a way, kinikilig nga ako sa kanila eh, kasi parang pigil na pigil ang emotions nila pero you know there is something between them that they can't yet admit.
His stories remind me why I'm olats when it comes to courtship kasi wala akong kafinesse-finesse na tao. LOL! :) Comparing what I usually do to what he's doing, olats talaga ako. 'Yun naman talaga basically ang problema ko. When I feel something for a particular person, di ko mapigilang sabihin agad sa taong 'yun na gusto ko siya. Kaya more likely than not, magiging apprehensive na siya sa akin and a beautiful friendship that would have evolved will not happen. Di ko alam eh pero ang hirap kasi magpigil ng emosyon. I am too transparent to a fault.
Isa pang olats ako, those sweet text messages that you send to the person you admire! Hahahaha! Wala ako sa kalingkingan ng kakayahan niya sa paggawa ng mga text messages na ganun! I don't know. I'm a talkative person but when it comes to expressing love, napaka limited lang ng vocabulary ko. Kaya usually, hanggang "ingat ka", "goodnight", "take care" lang ang nati-text ko. Eh if you tell me those are not boring text messages, ikaw na siguro ang para sa akin. Hahahaha! Tsaka there's something about me na a simple text such as "pa-hug" eh parang manyak na ang dating. LOL! :D
Hay... he's Mr. Suave and unfortunately, I'm not one.
I will just be true to myself. Love will come my way din. Yes. I still believe. :)