June 23, 2006

Get Busy

Now for the blog's nth cliché, I think I'm in love with the idea of being in love. It's better to think this way so that the hurt won't be too painful in the process. So I'm keeping myself busy. Tomorrow, I will try to call that number for swim lessons. Even if my body muscles are still aching, I will Body Combat to the gym at least thrice a week. I already bought plane fares to my hometown and my high school city for a vacation in July and August, respectively. I will tag along in my former department's Baguio outing next weekend. I will go out with my friends in the bar district tomorrow night. I have to be busy for me to forget what I feel about love. A friend sent me a Neil Gaiman quote about love and it pretty much sums up what I feel at present.

"Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love". ~ Neil Gaiman

Ouch. Somebody take me out of the blues! For one, you can suggest an activity for me to do during the two-month break. Anything! Anybody!

4 comments:

CF said...

From which of Neil Gaiman's books did that quote come from?

Well, as Elle Woods once said -- exercise releases endorphins , and endorphins make you happy! So the gym idea sounds like a good plan to me. ;-D

beatlebum said...

I actually don't know. I haven't read a Neil Gaiman. :D Thanks, CF! :)

saffron_blue said...

yesterday i had thought of reposting that Neil Gaiman line on my blog but thought better of it. nakaka-relate din kasi ako. ;-)

better to think of worst case scenarios than have your hopes crushed later...at magiging happy surprise pa kung eventually it turns out na labs ka rin pala nya. odevah!

why not write a script or story out of the experience. creative na, cathartic pa...knowing you though, you'll be over it and back to your usual self in a matter of days. :-)

beatlebum said...

hahaha! thanks saffron! isn't it ironic that you related to the line considering who sent me the quote? hehe :) good luck sa shoot tomorrow. i'll try to have fun with my kababayan friends tonight. :)