Before setting new personal goals, I think it's proper to go back to my past New Year goals just to see if this is an exercise in futility.
2010 Goals
1. Lose weight
Obviously my weight has been fluctuating since 2010. I gain weight when I have a regular soap. I lose weight when I'm on taping break.
Present Goal: Lose weight even if I have a regular taping schedule. Go back to the gym. Eat in moderation.
2. Stop being tactless
I would like to think that I'm now good in keeping some things to myself. Goal achieved!
3. Learn to swim.
Finally after 5 years, I enrolled in a swimming class last December. I still haven't finished.
Present Goal: Finish my swimming classes and be able to swim in deep water.
4. Save money.
I did move to my own condo unit last year; albeit, still regularly paying the bank for the housing loan.
Present Goal: Continue saving money to be able to pay the loan and buy a new car.
5. Finish short.
My short film Ang Asawa Kong si Nikulet was screened in SM Cine Expo last August 2010. Goal achieved!
6. Read more.
Sadly, I wasn't able to achieve this
Present Goal: Just like in 2010, I hope to read one book a month this year.
7. Go out with friends more.
I may not see my friends often but I now prefer meaningful than multiple meet-ups. I've also reached that point in life wherein I'm already secure about who my real friends are, even if we rarely meet. Goal no more!
8. Lessen internet time.
With my hectic taping schedule, I am forced to lessen internet time. Goal no more!
9. Learn to say no.
I did, countless times, and I love it! Goal achieved!
10. Stop procrastinating.
This is so difficult especially when one is physically tired or psychologically stressed out. My work does those to me all the time.
Present Goal: Learn how to focus!
2013 Goals
1. Travel more.
I did! Save for Bicol, I've been to the countries I hoped to travel that year.
Present Goal: Travel pa more! (Cambodia, UK, France, Sweden, Ilocos, El Nido)
2. Sleep more and early when not working.
This has become a natural occurrence more than a goal. Goal no more!
3. Direct an MMK episode or a commercial film.
I have been fortunate and blessed to be able to do both since then.
Present Goal: Direct an independent film. Collaborate with a good writer on your dream project.
4. Live, Laugh, Love.
This shouldn't be a goal. This should be inherently embodied. Goal no more!
5. Pray. Keep the faith.
I still believe in the power of prayer. Prayer helps me feel relaxed and stressed-out. It also humbles me and makes me feel grateful for all the blessings.
Present Goal: Set aside time to pray and meditate.
To make my present goals ten, I also hope to love myself more and (don't laugh) go back to the dating scene this year. I think I'm ready. Haha!
I actually felt very light and fulfilled every time I wrote Goal achieved or Goal no more. I will work hard in achieving these goals.
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January 02, 2016
January 01, 2014
2013 Year in Review
The unforgettable year that was 2013!
Had many highs and plentiful blessings early last year - a hit soap opera ( Annaliza, my love), my first time to direct in MMK in 2 high-rating episodes (I love working on the show!), and I got to travel abroad again with my family. The last quarter however, was unfortunate and if you've been following me on FB, you know what happened. We had our first Christmas without our mother this year. It was a blue Christmas, to put it succinctly. The good thing that came out from it though, was finding out who are our "real" friends and family, and I thank them for giving us their support, love, wisdom and comfort. So, good riddance 2013! I shall not forget you but I'm ready, no matter how difficult, to move on. 2014, I welcome you with open arms!
Happy new year to all of us!
Had many highs and plentiful blessings early last year - a hit soap opera ( Annaliza, my love), my first time to direct in MMK in 2 high-rating episodes (I love working on the show!), and I got to travel abroad again with my family. The last quarter however, was unfortunate and if you've been following me on FB, you know what happened. We had our first Christmas without our mother this year. It was a blue Christmas, to put it succinctly. The good thing that came out from it though, was finding out who are our "real" friends and family, and I thank them for giving us their support, love, wisdom and comfort. So, good riddance 2013! I shall not forget you but I'm ready, no matter how difficult, to move on. 2014, I welcome you with open arms!
Happy new year to all of us!
September 29, 2013
Bye, Nay!
My mother already passed away yesterday afternoon. It definitely breaks my heart for it was sudden, she didn't even have a life-threatening illness. What she had was a simple diarrhea that led to other complications. There might be a medical malpractice but the thought won't help me and family accept the situation now. I pray that God gives me the strength to deal with it later. Nevertheless, I still feel blessed and loved. She waited for me. I was able to talk to her on my first ICU visit upon arrival from Manila. She went into coma the following day. I might have written (or even directed) a few hospital death scenes in teleseryes but they didn't prepare me from yesterday's real scenario. We saw her being revived and were asked by the doctor of our decision after she was unresponsive for 30 minutes. It was heart-breaking. Sorry for the random thoughts and being dramatic. I just need to let out. I will definitely miss you Nay! We only lived together for 12 years but you were always my inspiration and my source of strength. I've always thought you were an old-fashioned conservative but the fact that you let me explore my dreams at a young age and supported me all the way makes you the best mother I could have. I hope I did you proud Nay. I love you soooo much!
ETA: I started my blog exactly 10 years ago and the first entry I wrote was about my Papay's (my Nanay's father) death. I refuse to be morbid about the coincidence. I''d rather think that Nanay and Papay, together with Mamay, are now reuniting in heaven.
ETA: I started my blog exactly 10 years ago and the first entry I wrote was about my Papay's (my Nanay's father) death. I refuse to be morbid about the coincidence. I''d rather think that Nanay and Papay, together with Mamay, are now reuniting in heaven.
September 26, 2013
Hospital Blues
I finally saw my Nanay in ICU early this evening. She was confined because of complications from diarrhea or pwede ring because of the leniency of a local government hospital. I should have segued to a rant about better and affordable health care that's lacking in our country, no thanks to corrupt government officials, but there's another venue for that. I just wanted to write an entry because I wanted to express my feelings upon seeing my Nanay that weak. I've never seen her that weak until tonight. She had difficulty talking. Her skin is bloated. She looks pale and older. The wires attached to her body do not help lessen her and my depressed state. I was shattered to pieces and it hurts.
We talked for an hour wherein she shared to me some life realizations because of what happened. She realized my Tatay, who's not the affectionate kind and who's not good with words, indeed loves her the way he took care of her when she got sick. She also told me an anecdote that had me in tears considering I was trying not to show my sadness to cheer her up. Anyway, she told me she asked my cousin, who grew up with my parents, about his greatest fear. My cousin, who hardly shows emotion and is still your typical irresponsible teenager, answered "losing you!". It got her teary eyed because to her, it validates her existence. It also got me me teary-eyed because after seeing her tonight, I feel the same.
We talked for an hour wherein she shared to me some life realizations because of what happened. She realized my Tatay, who's not the affectionate kind and who's not good with words, indeed loves her the way he took care of her when she got sick. She also told me an anecdote that had me in tears considering I was trying not to show my sadness to cheer her up. Anyway, she told me she asked my cousin, who grew up with my parents, about his greatest fear. My cousin, who hardly shows emotion and is still your typical irresponsible teenager, answered "losing you!". It got her teary eyed because to her, it validates her existence. It also got me me teary-eyed because after seeing her tonight, I feel the same.
July 01, 2013
Mixed Emotions
My fatigue probably offset a would-have-been emotional day. Thank God because I hate being emotional!
Honey and I helped our housemate Aris moved to his new apartment in Paranaque earlier. He had to move because his work location transferred to Alabang and it's a hassle traveling from QC to Alabang everyday. I will definitely miss Aris. Truth be told, he's probably my closest guy pal now. We actually started off on the wrong foot for reasons I'd rather not disclose but we became very close when we became housemates. Like I always write, ever since I stayed in a dorm in high school, I'm already used to housemates moving in and out and so it's difficult to maintain friendship. I would not like my friendship with Aris to suffer the same fate. I hope we'll be friends for life.
After helping Aris moved in, we had dinner in Vikings, MOA. It turned out CF, who's in a 2-week vacation in the Philippines, was also in the mall. CF is a dear friend who I used to write about here in my blog. We haven't seen each other for 4 years after CF migrated to the US. We had been trying to schedule a meet-up but it was very difficult because of my work. It was a twist of fate then that we found ourselves in the same location. I took the chance and excused myself from Aris and Honey to meet CF. I was very happy to see CF again. I miss CF! We're just friends now but CF will always have a special place in my heart. We chit-chat about our lives and I can see how CF has grown and matured. I am a proud brother! We promised to see each other again before CF leaves for the US or if not, when I get to travel to the US next year (fingers crossed!). CF promised to drive me around Sanfo.
I'm not used to writing a blog entry like this anymore. LOL!
Honey and I helped our housemate Aris moved to his new apartment in Paranaque earlier. He had to move because his work location transferred to Alabang and it's a hassle traveling from QC to Alabang everyday. I will definitely miss Aris. Truth be told, he's probably my closest guy pal now. We actually started off on the wrong foot for reasons I'd rather not disclose but we became very close when we became housemates. Like I always write, ever since I stayed in a dorm in high school, I'm already used to housemates moving in and out and so it's difficult to maintain friendship. I would not like my friendship with Aris to suffer the same fate. I hope we'll be friends for life.
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| Thanks for everything, Aris! |
I'm not used to writing a blog entry like this anymore. LOL!
October 10, 2011
Greatest Love Of All
The message of the first pop song I learned to sing still resonates. "Learning to love yourself is the greatest love of all." I'm still learning.
October 03, 2010
7 Highlights
In celebration of my blog's 7th anniversary, I thought of listing down 7 life highlights in the 7 years that I've been blogging.
1. My first movie screenplay
Prior to this, I've been script doctoring for other Star Cinema movies (Till There Was You to cite one) as part of my job as Creative Assistant but it's only until My First Romance that I finally got to see my name on the poster. Nowadays, I don't write scripts anymore but it's fun to read now how I acted so defensive about writing a teenybopper.
2. My first assistant director job
My first AD job was actually for Till There Was You but it's in All My Life where I was officially credited. Reading my All My Life entries now, I'm starting to get nervous about being Direk Lauren's AD again for a youth show we're producing. It's obvious I was really stressed out during the shoot. I just realized my first working relationship with Direk Lauren, who I now consider my mentor and "Tatay" in showbiz, was not smooth at all. :)
3. My first apartment
No, I didn't own it but after sharing a room with my parents or dormitory roommates for 24 years, I finally was able to afford renting an apartment and having a room of my own in 2004. Our UP Village abode was definitely a place of many beautiful memories - the impromptu post-PBB Celeb 1 celebration, Emman's 2005 birthday, my 26th birthday party, etc. I even wrote an emo entry about it when we left the place two years ago. Haha.
4. Film school!
In the end, it was worth the risk! The positive reception of my first short film Ang Asawa Kong Si Nikulet surely helped, too. :)
5. My first ____.
I'm sorry, it will remain a secret but the date will forever be etched.
6. My first heartache
At 26, I fell in love and got my heart broken. I even wrote a corny goodbye letter to express my pain. Haha! I experienced four more heartaches after but I guess the song is right, the first cut is the deepest.
7. Other memorable highlights
Haha! Madaya alam ko but I realized the past 7 years had so many highlights. I had a difficult time trimming them to 7. :p
- Yoboseyo Seoul
- First headwriting job
- First reality show
- First time in HK (Last March's Hongkong trip was memorable too!)
- THE Baguio trip of 2005
- THE scandalous 2005 elementary reunion
- PBB Celeb 1 Cebu-Iloilo immersion
- Meeting the Survivor castaways
- Rose's 28th birthday in Tagaytay
- Coron & Bora in 2009
- My worst yet most favorite birthday ever!
Actually marami pa. I know, right? I had a life after all! :D
1. My first movie screenplay
Prior to this, I've been script doctoring for other Star Cinema movies (Till There Was You to cite one) as part of my job as Creative Assistant but it's only until My First Romance that I finally got to see my name on the poster. Nowadays, I don't write scripts anymore but it's fun to read now how I acted so defensive about writing a teenybopper.
2. My first assistant director job
My first AD job was actually for Till There Was You but it's in All My Life where I was officially credited. Reading my All My Life entries now, I'm starting to get nervous about being Direk Lauren's AD again for a youth show we're producing. It's obvious I was really stressed out during the shoot. I just realized my first working relationship with Direk Lauren, who I now consider my mentor and "Tatay" in showbiz, was not smooth at all. :)
3. My first apartment
No, I didn't own it but after sharing a room with my parents or dormitory roommates for 24 years, I finally was able to afford renting an apartment and having a room of my own in 2004. Our UP Village abode was definitely a place of many beautiful memories - the impromptu post-PBB Celeb 1 celebration, Emman's 2005 birthday, my 26th birthday party, etc. I even wrote an emo entry about it when we left the place two years ago. Haha.
4. Film school!
In the end, it was worth the risk! The positive reception of my first short film Ang Asawa Kong Si Nikulet surely helped, too. :)
5. My first ____.
I'm sorry, it will remain a secret but the date will forever be etched.
6. My first heartache
At 26, I fell in love and got my heart broken. I even wrote a corny goodbye letter to express my pain. Haha! I experienced four more heartaches after but I guess the song is right, the first cut is the deepest.
7. Other memorable highlights
Haha! Madaya alam ko but I realized the past 7 years had so many highlights. I had a difficult time trimming them to 7. :p
- Yoboseyo Seoul
- First headwriting job
- First reality show
- First time in HK (Last March's Hongkong trip was memorable too!)
- THE Baguio trip of 2005
- THE scandalous 2005 elementary reunion
- PBB Celeb 1 Cebu-Iloilo immersion
- Meeting the Survivor castaways
- Rose's 28th birthday in Tagaytay
- Coron & Bora in 2009
- My worst yet most favorite birthday ever!
Actually marami pa. I know, right? I had a life after all! :D
February 27, 2008
Mga Pang Sense Memory!
,Guilty. La lang. Nagi-guilty lang ako kay Miss Mari. Napakabait kasi n'ya. Lam n'yo namang last kong raket e My Big Love pa (last August pa 'yun) dahil sa school. Tapos nung nalaman kong siya na ang headwriter ng Your Song, sinabi ko kay Henry (na close friend ni Miss Mari) na I-reco n'ya ako kay Miss Mari kasi 'yun yung show na gusto kong raketan. Lam n'yo, kahit magkakakilala lang kami ni Miss Mari dahil sa pagiging dating Creative Assistant ko sa Star, tinext niya agad ako na welcome ako. Naka-can nga lang daw ang mga episodes kaya baka sa next story na ako papasok. Tapos yun, eh biglang di ko inasahang may darating na isang raket, tapos may training program pa kami sa TV aside from our 2nd short exercise project sa school, wala akong choice kundi humindi sa kanya nung tinext n'ya ako na magbi-brainstorm na kami. Nagi-guilty lang talaga ako kasi nakakahiya e. Ako na nga ang humingi ng raket, tapos ngayon ako na ang nagsabing di ako pwede. Ugh. Kakahiya talaga.
Pagod. Twenty hours nakong walang tulog. Umattend kasi ako ng premiere kagabi sa My Big Love tapos bigla akong inofferan ng one day raket ng Super Papalicious as crowd director. Di naman ako makahindi kasi nakakahiya nang tumanggi. Ilang beses na kasi tapos si Miss Zel pa ang EP, ang bait nun sakin. Kaya umoo na rin ako kahit 6 on the set ang coltym. Di ako nakatulog talaga. Nininerbiyos rin kasi. Kahit crowd director lang ako sa Super Papalicious, first time ko rin kasing mag-production work ulit sa mainstream cinema after All My Life (2004 pa 'yun) kaya medyo anxious ako. Siyempre si Manong Gilbert pa yun. Ayokong mapagalitan nun. Jusko, pagdating ko sa set, ang laki pala ng eksena. Family day kunyari sa school ni Makisig! La lang. Kakawindang. Kakapagod. Pasaway ang mga batang talents. Haha. In fairness, namiss ko rin palang mag prod work! Na miss ko rin si Manong. Ako dapat AD niya dun sa na-shelved na unang My First Romance movie e. Salamat Yam, Rai, Chris, Gary, Ann and Billy for helping me adjust easily sa set!
Kaba. Kinakabahan ako ngayon kasi magsastart na rin akong magsulat dito sa commercial project na gagawin namin nina Pablo at Francis. Literally commercial siya, sponsored ng isang brand para i-promote ang kanilang brand obviously. First time kong gumawa ng ganito. Siyempre unang kaba ko nung pinresent namin sa project head ang vision at treatment namin sa project. Sa awa ng Diyos, naaprub agad at script writing phase na. Kaya lang lam n'yo yun, naiintimidate talaga ako sa "commercial" people. Hindi lang dahil nakaka-nosebleed sila o napaka-fasyon pero basta may something e. Lorrrd, tulungan mo ako dito. Siyempre nininerbiyos din ako kasi meron pa akong ibang deadlines na di ko nagagawa. Hello Short Exercise 2! Hello MMK training! Waaaah!
Saya. Ang saya ng premiere night kagabi sa My Big Love. Pumunta pa high school classmates ko kaya masaya ako. (Siyempre kinwento ni Randy sa ibang high school classmates namin 'yung red carpet experience niya. Nahiya ako bigla. Akala tuloy ng ibang high school classmates ko big time ako, e ngerk! ). Andaming dapat i-congratulate sa movie pero siguro pinakauna talaga si Jade dahil nawitness ko first-hand yung hirap na dinanas niya sa project na 'to. And it paid off naman ng sobra sobra! Super-box office hit ang first day! Sana tuloy-tuloy! Kakainggit ka Jade, I'm so proud of you! Di ka lang critically-acclaimed director (c/o Endo), box-office director ka na rin! :) Congrats!
Kahit na di kayo ang target market, big thank you na rin sa mga friends kong nanood sa mga sinehan! Heto pala ang ilan sa mga pictures sa premiere night c/o Michiko. Sorry, walang artista picture!
From Pangako sa 'Yo, to SCQ Reload, and now My Big Love! Hahaha! (Nahiya ako kay Mich! Lahat ng chorva projects niya, kasama ako! :D)
Friends and Colleagues!
Based sa story ni Henry (and Tessa) ang My Big Love!
Pagod. Twenty hours nakong walang tulog. Umattend kasi ako ng premiere kagabi sa My Big Love tapos bigla akong inofferan ng one day raket ng Super Papalicious as crowd director. Di naman ako makahindi kasi nakakahiya nang tumanggi. Ilang beses na kasi tapos si Miss Zel pa ang EP, ang bait nun sakin. Kaya umoo na rin ako kahit 6 on the set ang coltym. Di ako nakatulog talaga. Nininerbiyos rin kasi. Kahit crowd director lang ako sa Super Papalicious, first time ko rin kasing mag-production work ulit sa mainstream cinema after All My Life (2004 pa 'yun) kaya medyo anxious ako. Siyempre si Manong Gilbert pa yun. Ayokong mapagalitan nun. Jusko, pagdating ko sa set, ang laki pala ng eksena. Family day kunyari sa school ni Makisig! La lang. Kakawindang. Kakapagod. Pasaway ang mga batang talents. Haha. In fairness, namiss ko rin palang mag prod work! Na miss ko rin si Manong. Ako dapat AD niya dun sa na-shelved na unang My First Romance movie e. Salamat Yam, Rai, Chris, Gary, Ann and Billy for helping me adjust easily sa set!
Kaba. Kinakabahan ako ngayon kasi magsastart na rin akong magsulat dito sa commercial project na gagawin namin nina Pablo at Francis. Literally commercial siya, sponsored ng isang brand para i-promote ang kanilang brand obviously. First time kong gumawa ng ganito. Siyempre unang kaba ko nung pinresent namin sa project head ang vision at treatment namin sa project. Sa awa ng Diyos, naaprub agad at script writing phase na. Kaya lang lam n'yo yun, naiintimidate talaga ako sa "commercial" people. Hindi lang dahil nakaka-nosebleed sila o napaka-fasyon pero basta may something e. Lorrrd, tulungan mo ako dito. Siyempre nininerbiyos din ako kasi meron pa akong ibang deadlines na di ko nagagawa. Hello Short Exercise 2! Hello MMK training! Waaaah!
Saya. Ang saya ng premiere night kagabi sa My Big Love. Pumunta pa high school classmates ko kaya masaya ako. (Siyempre kinwento ni Randy sa ibang high school classmates namin 'yung red carpet experience niya. Nahiya ako bigla. Akala tuloy ng ibang high school classmates ko big time ako, e ngerk! ). Andaming dapat i-congratulate sa movie pero siguro pinakauna talaga si Jade dahil nawitness ko first-hand yung hirap na dinanas niya sa project na 'to. And it paid off naman ng sobra sobra! Super-box office hit ang first day! Sana tuloy-tuloy! Kakainggit ka Jade, I'm so proud of you! Di ka lang critically-acclaimed director (c/o Endo), box-office director ka na rin! :) Congrats!
Kahit na di kayo ang target market, big thank you na rin sa mga friends kong nanood sa mga sinehan! Heto pala ang ilan sa mga pictures sa premiere night c/o Michiko. Sorry, walang artista picture!
From Pangako sa 'Yo, to SCQ Reload, and now My Big Love! Hahaha! (Nahiya ako kay Mich! Lahat ng chorva projects niya, kasama ako! :D)
Friends and Colleagues!
Based sa story ni Henry (and Tessa) ang My Big Love!
January 01, 2008
Happy New Year!
To my friends who are wondering, I just want to make it clear that I’m not angry with anyone. It’s not right for me to judge people. Beauty pageant answer as I may sound but I don’t think there’s really a human being who’s purely evil (or purely good for that matter.) We just do unexplainable things to survive, or we are basically flawed but not necessarily evil. I was more of angry and frustrated at the situation, thus the spur of the moment emotional blog entry. Now, I’m just more of sad yet hopeful and prayerful that everything will be alright.
Sans my one-man drama (e kasi naman kaya ako nababaliw dito kasi wala akong makausap about it. Sarili ko lang kinakausap ko, schizo mode! :D), my vacation’s okay. My elementary classmates and I had our annual reunion last Sunday night and as always, it was a blast. We videoke’d, drank and danced till dawn. Some of us plan to visit Dakak in a few days. Sana nga matuloy. Honestly though, I’m scared of going back to Manila. Unlike last year, I have no idea what’s in store for me in 2008 in terms of work and school. Again, there’s the issue of finding a job before my savings are emptied but I also want to be careful about it because I don’t want it to interfere with school. Okay another cliché; I’ll just leave everything up to the Lord. :)
Para bago naman, Math's dictionary muna and not Monjam's, have a “krispy” new year friends! :)
December 26, 2007
Random Vacation Thoughts!
- Dahil sa kangaragan sa mga araw bago ang Pasko, parang di ko maramdaman ang Pasko this year. Sana maka-recover din ako in time for New Year.
- I realized na kailangan ko talaga ng mga alone mode minsan. Madali akong magsawa. Ayokong masyadong ma-attach.
- Tuwing umuuwi ako samin, tumatanda ang itsura ng parents ko. Lolo at lola na talaga sila. Nalulungkot ako dun. Sana wag muna silang dapuan ng pang-matandang sakit.
- Mahirap ang buhay namin sa probinsiya. Walang kotse. Maliit ang bahay. Walang internet connection. Napakasimpleng pamumuhay. Pero bakit walang stress? Bakit napakamasayahin pa rin ng mga tao? Di ba yun naman ang hinahangad nating lahat na pupuntahan kaya tayo nagpapakahirap sa trabaho?
- Gusto ko na talagang mag-worry. Kasi kailangan ko na talaga ng trabaho next year. Pero as usual, tinatamad na naman ako kahit mag-isip lang ng options. Gusto ko munang mag-relak. Sana di ako mag-kolap.
- Gusto ko talagang pumunta ng Dakak! Ugh! Natatakot ako sa gastos pero gusto kong pumunta! Dapat last year pa ‘to pero dahil sa pagiging adik sa kaiisip sa isang tao sa Maynila, di ko naasikaso. Ngayon naman, wala nang ganun kaso wala naman akong pera. Argh!
- Kainis, nasira bisikleta ko. Pagbibisikleta ‘round town ang exercise ko dito e. Kung nakita n’yo You Tube ko, naimmortalized pa pagbibisikleta ko habang kumakanta ng Weezer. Hahaha! Gusto kong bumili ng bago na hindi pambata (binili ko kasi yun para sa pinsan ko) pero napakabigat na sakin ngayon ang magwaldas ng 2 o 3 kiyaw considering na nagagamit ko lang naman siya tuwing bakasyon. Nainis pako kasi wala akong nadalang gym shorts. Breeze walk na lang sana. Hay.
- In other words, tumaba ako dito. Lang laging ginagawa kundi kain at tulog at nood ng TV at maglaro ng Gameboy at... In less than a week, lumobo ang tiyan ko. Eh dati nang lobo ‘yun e.
- Nagplano kami ng mga elementary batchmates ko kagabi for our annual reunion. Bakit napakalungkot? Ang konti na lang namin. Kung saan na napupunta ang iba – OFW sa ibang bansa, nagtatrabaho sa ibang bahagi ng Pilipinas at walang pera pang-uwi, ang iba naman meron nang mga asawa’t anak kaya di na pwedeng maki-gimik, atbp. Ang saya dati e.
- Nami-miss ko rin ang mga high school classmates ko. Kaso nasa kabilang island sila. Kapagod at ang gastos pumunta. Kaya ko naisip ang Dakak kasi a decade ago (a decade ago, ugh!) pumunta kami run. Wala kaming pera nun pero masaya kami. Meron na kaming konting pera ngayon. Siguro naman mas magiging masaya siya.
- Sana ma-inspire ako at makapag-isip ng mga kwento habang nandito. Kaso masyado akong zen, er, tamad-tamaran mode dito.
- Sana mabasa ko naman ang mga librong dinala ko dito. Laging nasa sked ko na magbasa pero di ko nasusunod sked e. Pati na rin mga DVDs.
April 04, 2007
Teenybopper Forever!
Haaay. Senti mode ako ngayon. Kapapanood ko lang ng series finale ng The O.C. Haha! :) Babaw noh?! Sobrang thesis ko 'to kung college lang ako ngayon. Haha! :) Pero seryoso! Eh Dawson's Creek kaya thesis ko nung college! Hahaha! :) Ugh, what's with me and these teenybopper shows?! Para siyang Peter Pan syndrome teenage version. LOL! :)
'Yun lang. Sana we'll all have a meaningful holy week. Kahit na may trabaho ako. Yes, for the first time! Haaay. :)
'Yun lang. Sana we'll all have a meaningful holy week. Kahit na may trabaho ako. Yes, for the first time! Haaay. :)
January 06, 2007
I'm Only Happy When It Rains!
Ang unfair talaga ng weather! Di ba sinabi ko nang every time na gumigimik ako dito sa amin, palaging umuulan? Ayun, nung last gimik namin before balik ni Andrew ng Maynila, ang lakas na naman ng ulan. Naulanan ako pag-uwi. Ang ending, umandar na naman ang sinusitis ko with matching migraine. Ang sakit talaga! Akala ko nga lalagnatin na ako. Oks na ako ngayon pero ang weather, ang sama pa rin. Hindi tuloy natuloy ang mga high school classmates ko na pumunta samin. Ganto kasi yun, instead na sa onse ang balik ko ng Maynila, ginawa ko nang 14 kasi nga ininvite ko ang mga HS classmates ko na mag-Dakak. Go na sana sila, naayos ko na ang hotel reservation pati ang renta ng sasakyan pero hayun, si weather, di pa rin nagku-cooperate. Nagdesisyon na lang sila na di na tumuloy. Hindi na yata talaga ako makapag-Dakak. Phew!
Kasabay pa ng malalakas na ulan, dumating rin ang balita na namatay na si Lola Ising. Distant relative namin siya pero medyo close ako sa kanya nung bata pa ako. Kalaro ko kasi dati yung mga apo niya at dun kami palaging naglalaro sa bahay nila. Matanda na rin siya, 94 years old, kaya hindi na rin biglaan ang kanyang pagkamatay. Oras na niya talaga kaya ipinagdarasal ko na lang that she'll rest in peace. Darating daw from Ausralia sina Tyn at Yuri. Sila yung mga apo niya na kalaro ko dati. Si Tyn yung na-meet ni Michiko sa Brisbane nung na-invite ang Maxi sa filmfest dun. Matagal ko na ring di na-meet si Tyn, pati na rin ng mga elementary classmates namin, kaya baka may mini-reunion on the side when she arrives.
Alam nyo, dahil sa dalawang araw na di ako nakalabas ng bahay dahil sa weather, andami ko tuloy na naiisip na mga walang kwentang bagay. Hahaha! Well, di naman walang kwenta talaga pero alam nyo 'yung mga bagay na di mo naman naiisip kung mayroon ka lang ibang pinagkakaabalahan. Mga purely techie stuff like nagwa-wonder ako kung meron bang phone na pwedeng ipagsabay ang dalawang SIM cards kasi Smart user ako pero karamihan sa mga contacts ko ay Globe. Gusto ko sanang lumipat na sa Globe pero ayoko rin namang iwan ang Smart dahil yung mga housemates ko, yung family ko at yung provincial friends ko, Smart users sila. Isa pa, Smart cellphone ang dahilan kaya ako nakakapag internet ngayon dito sa province without going to cybercafes. So nag-research ako sa net at nalaman kong wala pa talagang phone na me ganong capability. Iniisip kong mag-dalawang phones na lang pero parang di rin praktikal para sa akin. Tapos sa pagri-research ko, nadiscover ko na meron na palang PLDT Weroam kung saan you can surt the net anywhere via this chip that they'll insert sa laptop mo na nakakakuha ng Smart signal. Naisip ko, kung meron lang akong ganun, pwede na sigurong mag-switch na talaga ako sa Globe kaso naman, 1,700 pesos ang monthly fee. Di naman ganun ka-stable ang job ko para magbayad ng ganun kamahal. Sana dumating ang time na magiging mura na ang Weroam. Tapos isa pa, dahil dun bigla kong naisip ang laptop ko na kailangan na talagang palitan ang casing dahil ang dumi dumi na, nakakahiyang ilabas. Ayoko rin naman kasing bumili ng bagong laptop kasi okay na ako dito eh. So kita nyo na, napaka walang kwenta ng mga iniisip ko! Hahahahaha! At isang topic pa lang yan ha!
Sana the sun will come out tomorrow. :)
Kasabay pa ng malalakas na ulan, dumating rin ang balita na namatay na si Lola Ising. Distant relative namin siya pero medyo close ako sa kanya nung bata pa ako. Kalaro ko kasi dati yung mga apo niya at dun kami palaging naglalaro sa bahay nila. Matanda na rin siya, 94 years old, kaya hindi na rin biglaan ang kanyang pagkamatay. Oras na niya talaga kaya ipinagdarasal ko na lang that she'll rest in peace. Darating daw from Ausralia sina Tyn at Yuri. Sila yung mga apo niya na kalaro ko dati. Si Tyn yung na-meet ni Michiko sa Brisbane nung na-invite ang Maxi sa filmfest dun. Matagal ko na ring di na-meet si Tyn, pati na rin ng mga elementary classmates namin, kaya baka may mini-reunion on the side when she arrives.
Alam nyo, dahil sa dalawang araw na di ako nakalabas ng bahay dahil sa weather, andami ko tuloy na naiisip na mga walang kwentang bagay. Hahaha! Well, di naman walang kwenta talaga pero alam nyo 'yung mga bagay na di mo naman naiisip kung mayroon ka lang ibang pinagkakaabalahan. Mga purely techie stuff like nagwa-wonder ako kung meron bang phone na pwedeng ipagsabay ang dalawang SIM cards kasi Smart user ako pero karamihan sa mga contacts ko ay Globe. Gusto ko sanang lumipat na sa Globe pero ayoko rin namang iwan ang Smart dahil yung mga housemates ko, yung family ko at yung provincial friends ko, Smart users sila. Isa pa, Smart cellphone ang dahilan kaya ako nakakapag internet ngayon dito sa province without going to cybercafes. So nag-research ako sa net at nalaman kong wala pa talagang phone na me ganong capability. Iniisip kong mag-dalawang phones na lang pero parang di rin praktikal para sa akin. Tapos sa pagri-research ko, nadiscover ko na meron na palang PLDT Weroam kung saan you can surt the net anywhere via this chip that they'll insert sa laptop mo na nakakakuha ng Smart signal. Naisip ko, kung meron lang akong ganun, pwede na sigurong mag-switch na talaga ako sa Globe kaso naman, 1,700 pesos ang monthly fee. Di naman ganun ka-stable ang job ko para magbayad ng ganun kamahal. Sana dumating ang time na magiging mura na ang Weroam. Tapos isa pa, dahil dun bigla kong naisip ang laptop ko na kailangan na talagang palitan ang casing dahil ang dumi dumi na, nakakahiyang ilabas. Ayoko rin naman kasing bumili ng bagong laptop kasi okay na ako dito eh. So kita nyo na, napaka walang kwenta ng mga iniisip ko! Hahahahaha! At isang topic pa lang yan ha!
Sana the sun will come out tomorrow. :)
December 30, 2006
As The Year Ends!
Okay na ako. I’ve been going out with my friends here. Marami kasing happening kasi it’s the 1st Handuraw Festival. Sometimes, nararamdaman ko pa rin ang heartache but I think the key here is really moving on and meeting new people. Di nga lang ako masyadong makagalaw dito kasi our town is the town wherein everyone knows everybody. Konting galaw mo, mapupuna ka na agad. Kaya nga relate na relate ako sa song ng Eraserheads na “Shake Yer Head” eh. Ako pa naman. Di ako pwedeng gumawa ng kababalaghan dito (not that I intend to) kasi, humility aside, I think some people look up to me here. Role model po ako. Nakakapanibago. Hehe.
I really really wish work won’t start till the last week of January or better, first week of February. Andami ko pang planong gawin sa bakasyon. I want to go to Dakak next week. Mag-isa. Hehe. 1997 pa ako last nakapunta dun so I don’t know kung ano nang itsura niya. Although hindi pa ako sure kung matutuloy ako kasi nga di ko pa alam kung sino ang kokontakin pero sana nga makapunta ako. I need some alone time sa isang lugar na hopefully walang nakakakilala sa akin. Relax and chill lang talaga. :)
I plan to island hop Visayas din sana kaso parang mas okay na yun pag me kasama ka. Que sera sera muna. Let’s play it by ear pagdating ng 2007.
Pero actually natatakot ako what 2007 will bring to me. Noong 2004, I felt na blessed na ako with work and all pero 2005 topped it pa. Kaya natakot na naman ako sa 2006 pero hayun, the good Lord has been good and blessed me with even more blessings. Tapos na-inlove pa ako, which looking back can be considered a blessing actually. So I don’t know. I don’t want to expect much for 2007. PBB 2 pa lang ang alam kong definite plan for 2007. After that, I don’t know what wil happen next to me. Sana lang talaga magkakaroon ako ng bayag to know and pursue what I really want to do. Sa ngayon kasi, I’m tipong just go with the flow. Forrest Gump, kumbaga, which was a film that unwittingly had a very strong influence with the way I live my life now. Cliché man pero kahit hindi ako ganun ka-religious and spiritual, I’d say I’ll leave everything up to God na lang siguro, kung anong plan niya for me. Sana lang, more than myself, He’ll continually bless my family with good health and financial blessings. We may not be expressive nor have deep communication with each other but I do love them very much and I want them to be happy.
For 2007, I don’t think I will make a wishlist anymore. Pointless rin kasi. Tingnan nyo naman ang nangyari sa wishlist ko last year…
Wishlist 2006
1. DVR
Hindi ako nakabili pero sabagay, I subscribed to SmartBro and figured out na downloading bit torrent files of your favorite TV shows is the way to go!
2. Car
To be honest, kaya ko nang bumili ng 2nd hand o kahit cheapest na brand new pero I am so scared pa to buy kasi baka naman maubos ang laman ng bank account ko. Raraket muna ako sa PBB bago ako magdesisyon. At the same time, walang garage ang apartment namin, kaya di pwede.
3. New but affordable apartment
Well, I hope to look for one again this year kasi kailangan talaga ng may garahe na apartment. Kaso mahirap kasi ayoko rin namang iwan ang mga housemates ko na sina Rose at Mitch. Tapos andyan pa ang bagong housemate naming si Bing. Ayaw ko rin kasing mag-isa lang sa bahay. That’s just so lonely. So ngayon, I’m looking na for a 4BR apartment with garage. Tapos gusto namin sa same or nearby village pa rin. Sana may makatulong sa akin on this one.
4. Trip outside the country, but not an Asian country
Ayoko nang umasa dito kahit sa 2007. It’s either this kasi or the car. :)
5. Lovelife
Que sera sera. :)
Basta siguro ang goal ko lang this year is to do everything with all my heart and my soul; to be focus in achieving my dreams yet not forgetting to have fun once in a while. To sum it up, parang the usual “live life to the fullest in 2007” comes to mind. Hehe! Carpe diem!
I’m scared … sigh…:)
I really really wish work won’t start till the last week of January or better, first week of February. Andami ko pang planong gawin sa bakasyon. I want to go to Dakak next week. Mag-isa. Hehe. 1997 pa ako last nakapunta dun so I don’t know kung ano nang itsura niya. Although hindi pa ako sure kung matutuloy ako kasi nga di ko pa alam kung sino ang kokontakin pero sana nga makapunta ako. I need some alone time sa isang lugar na hopefully walang nakakakilala sa akin. Relax and chill lang talaga. :)
I plan to island hop Visayas din sana kaso parang mas okay na yun pag me kasama ka. Que sera sera muna. Let’s play it by ear pagdating ng 2007.
Pero actually natatakot ako what 2007 will bring to me. Noong 2004, I felt na blessed na ako with work and all pero 2005 topped it pa. Kaya natakot na naman ako sa 2006 pero hayun, the good Lord has been good and blessed me with even more blessings. Tapos na-inlove pa ako, which looking back can be considered a blessing actually. So I don’t know. I don’t want to expect much for 2007. PBB 2 pa lang ang alam kong definite plan for 2007. After that, I don’t know what wil happen next to me. Sana lang talaga magkakaroon ako ng bayag to know and pursue what I really want to do. Sa ngayon kasi, I’m tipong just go with the flow. Forrest Gump, kumbaga, which was a film that unwittingly had a very strong influence with the way I live my life now. Cliché man pero kahit hindi ako ganun ka-religious and spiritual, I’d say I’ll leave everything up to God na lang siguro, kung anong plan niya for me. Sana lang, more than myself, He’ll continually bless my family with good health and financial blessings. We may not be expressive nor have deep communication with each other but I do love them very much and I want them to be happy.
For 2007, I don’t think I will make a wishlist anymore. Pointless rin kasi. Tingnan nyo naman ang nangyari sa wishlist ko last year…
Wishlist 2006
1. DVR
Hindi ako nakabili pero sabagay, I subscribed to SmartBro and figured out na downloading bit torrent files of your favorite TV shows is the way to go!
2. Car
To be honest, kaya ko nang bumili ng 2nd hand o kahit cheapest na brand new pero I am so scared pa to buy kasi baka naman maubos ang laman ng bank account ko. Raraket muna ako sa PBB bago ako magdesisyon. At the same time, walang garage ang apartment namin, kaya di pwede.
3. New but affordable apartment
Well, I hope to look for one again this year kasi kailangan talaga ng may garahe na apartment. Kaso mahirap kasi ayoko rin namang iwan ang mga housemates ko na sina Rose at Mitch. Tapos andyan pa ang bagong housemate naming si Bing. Ayaw ko rin kasing mag-isa lang sa bahay. That’s just so lonely. So ngayon, I’m looking na for a 4BR apartment with garage. Tapos gusto namin sa same or nearby village pa rin. Sana may makatulong sa akin on this one.
4. Trip outside the country, but not an Asian country
Ayoko nang umasa dito kahit sa 2007. It’s either this kasi or the car. :)
5. Lovelife
Que sera sera. :)
Basta siguro ang goal ko lang this year is to do everything with all my heart and my soul; to be focus in achieving my dreams yet not forgetting to have fun once in a while. To sum it up, parang the usual “live life to the fullest in 2007” comes to mind. Hehe! Carpe diem!
I’m scared … sigh…:)
December 05, 2006
Tulog Na!
Grabe, not having enough sleep is taking its toll on me. I feel very weak. Tinatamad akong kumilos. Inaantok na ako kanina pa actually pero hihintayin ko muna ang airing. Buti na lang hindi masyadong mabigat ang shift ko kanina. Late na kasi nagising ang mga bata kaya tatlo lang ang story items ko na pwede namang tanggalin pag merong meatier stories that happened later in the day. Pero scared ako kanina. Haha! First time ko kasing makikita si Lolo after the okray incident. Pero oks lang. Mukhang good mood naman siya at di na niya ako ni-remind about it. Ako naman, I didn't bring it up na kasi for me okay na yun. I learned my lesson already. Alam ko na more or less ang ineexpect niya sa mga VTR items of the same nature and hopefully magagawa ko na siyang mabuti next time. Honestly, di naman talaga ako takot kay Lolo unless siguro grabe nang pagkakamali ko. Even if he can be unreasonably angry sometimes, he knows naman how to listen and respect the other side. Well, I think. :) Kaya yun ang gusto ko sa kanya.
Pero di pa kami nagkita ni Albert. Haha! I'm sure dadakdakan na naman ako nun pag nagkita kami. Hahaha! Sasabihin na naman nun how things should be done, na dapat may emosyon, na dapay may puso. Hehe. The funny thing is aware naman ako dun. Nahihirapan lang akong mag-interpret. Minsan kasi may "ilang" factor ako pag consciously ginagawa yun. Nagiging insincere kasi ang dating sa akin. (Matagal ko nang problema 'to, PBB pa lang). Kaya I try to be as subtle as possible pero yun na nga, I'm forgetting this is mainstream TV. Everything's excessive. Everything's colorful. You've got to feed the "heart". :)
Pero maaga ako natapos sa trabaho ha! Nakapagpa-peeling session pa ako sa dermatologist ko kanina. Haha! Hindi ako vain ha! Kailangan lang talaga kasi ma-pimple ako dati kaya kailangang ma-minimize ang scars. Last year lang ako nag-start magpa-derma, nung nagkapera na ako. Wala naman sigurong masama pag I wanna look good di ba? Malay natin, makakatulong para magka-lovelife! Ayos! Hahaha. Pero hindi rin. Naniniwala na akong love is destiny kaya di na lang ako maghahanap. Hahaha.
Nakakuha pala ako ng dalawang passes para sa friend ko for Saturday gala. Buti naman. Ewan ko ba kung bakit pahirapan ang pagkaroon ng passes sa sarili kong show. Mas inuuna kasi ang mga sponsors which is understable naman. Kaya lang, wawa kaming staff. Sa buong season, dalawang beses pa lang yata akong naging successful at nabigyan ng passes. Minsan nahihiya tuloy ako sa mga friends ko kasi andaming humihingi pero di ko naman mabigyan. Parang tuloy hindi ako part ng show. Waaah, self-pity! Haha! Tapos kahit may passes na, pahirapan pa rin sa pagpasok sa concert hall. Napaka-strikto ng mga guards kahit sa mga staff. Hay! Sana lang mag-enjoy yung friend ko at ang kanyang ka-date. Ouch! :)
Osha, wala na akong masabi. Yung sidebar music pala, song 'yan from the album PDA Originals Volume 3. Favorite song ko yan dun. Pang Sunday afternoon siya. Pang-siesta hour. Astig noh? :)
Pero di pa kami nagkita ni Albert. Haha! I'm sure dadakdakan na naman ako nun pag nagkita kami. Hahaha! Sasabihin na naman nun how things should be done, na dapat may emosyon, na dapay may puso. Hehe. The funny thing is aware naman ako dun. Nahihirapan lang akong mag-interpret. Minsan kasi may "ilang" factor ako pag consciously ginagawa yun. Nagiging insincere kasi ang dating sa akin. (Matagal ko nang problema 'to, PBB pa lang). Kaya I try to be as subtle as possible pero yun na nga, I'm forgetting this is mainstream TV. Everything's excessive. Everything's colorful. You've got to feed the "heart". :)
Pero maaga ako natapos sa trabaho ha! Nakapagpa-peeling session pa ako sa dermatologist ko kanina. Haha! Hindi ako vain ha! Kailangan lang talaga kasi ma-pimple ako dati kaya kailangang ma-minimize ang scars. Last year lang ako nag-start magpa-derma, nung nagkapera na ako. Wala naman sigurong masama pag I wanna look good di ba? Malay natin, makakatulong para magka-lovelife! Ayos! Hahaha. Pero hindi rin. Naniniwala na akong love is destiny kaya di na lang ako maghahanap. Hahaha.
Nakakuha pala ako ng dalawang passes para sa friend ko for Saturday gala. Buti naman. Ewan ko ba kung bakit pahirapan ang pagkaroon ng passes sa sarili kong show. Mas inuuna kasi ang mga sponsors which is understable naman. Kaya lang, wawa kaming staff. Sa buong season, dalawang beses pa lang yata akong naging successful at nabigyan ng passes. Minsan nahihiya tuloy ako sa mga friends ko kasi andaming humihingi pero di ko naman mabigyan. Parang tuloy hindi ako part ng show. Waaah, self-pity! Haha! Tapos kahit may passes na, pahirapan pa rin sa pagpasok sa concert hall. Napaka-strikto ng mga guards kahit sa mga staff. Hay! Sana lang mag-enjoy yung friend ko at ang kanyang ka-date. Ouch! :)
Osha, wala na akong masabi. Yung sidebar music pala, song 'yan from the album PDA Originals Volume 3. Favorite song ko yan dun. Pang Sunday afternoon siya. Pang-siesta hour. Astig noh? :)
December 04, 2006
TV Saves The Day!
My day started out pretty bad. Dahil depress depressan ako kagabi, nilasing ko ang sarili ko sa kaka-surf sa internet. Ang ending, nakatulog ako alas-sais na ng umaga. Lunch time na ako nagising pero di pa rin enough. Nasa mindset ko na kasi na dapat 7 hours of sleep a day ako at pag hindi nangyayari yun, expect na lang na bad mood na ako the whole day. :) Actually pwede ko namang itulog ang buong araw kasi day-off ko naman. Kaso andaming nakatambak na personal chores na dapat ko sanang ginawa pero di ko na nagawa dahil late na nga akong nagising. Di na ako nakapunta ng DFA para ayusin ang passport ko. Di na ako nakapuntang ABS para kunin ang rice stub. Wala na kasi kaming bigas sa apartment. Di na rin ako nakapuntang Cebu Pacific para i-resked yung flight na di ko nagamit last August dahil naiwan ako ng eroplano. Haha.
Pero may mga nagawa rin naman ako kahit papano. Nakuha ko ang labada ko. Nakapunta ako ng SM para bumili ng bagong unan, ng perfume at ng CD-RWs. Yun lang. Hehe.
Last Friday pa actually ako minamalas. Sana naman bukas maging okay na. Alas-siete pa naman trabaho ko bukas. Patay! Di na naman ako makaka-7 hours of sleep. Haha! In fairness though, medyo magaan na pakiramdam ko ngayon. Mababaw lang ang dahilan. Nagandahan ako sa episode ng Amazing Race (sayang nga lang natanggal na sina Dustin at Kandice) at nag-enjoy naman ako sa episode ng show. Natuwa ako na naipalabas lahat ng items ko last Saturday night. Mababaw lang talaga ang kaligayahan ko. :)
Pero may mga nagawa rin naman ako kahit papano. Nakuha ko ang labada ko. Nakapunta ako ng SM para bumili ng bagong unan, ng perfume at ng CD-RWs. Yun lang. Hehe.
Last Friday pa actually ako minamalas. Sana naman bukas maging okay na. Alas-siete pa naman trabaho ko bukas. Patay! Di na naman ako makaka-7 hours of sleep. Haha! In fairness though, medyo magaan na pakiramdam ko ngayon. Mababaw lang ang dahilan. Nagandahan ako sa episode ng Amazing Race (sayang nga lang natanggal na sina Dustin at Kandice) at nag-enjoy naman ako sa episode ng show. Natuwa ako na naipalabas lahat ng items ko last Saturday night. Mababaw lang talaga ang kaligayahan ko. :)
Bago!
Hay nami-miss ko na ang blog na 'to. Sa sobrang busy ko kasi sa trabaho parang wala na akong time para mag-isip at magsulat ng ibang bagay. Kaya tuloy palaging walang bagong updates dito. Nakaka-miss rin yung dati. Yung wala akong pera pero in touch naman ako sa feelings ko (Tama ba yun? Haha!). Kita nyo naman siguro sa mga posts ko nung bago pa lang ang blog ko. Emosyonal. May puso. Dramatic.
Siguro gawin ko na lang talagang random thoughts ang ipu-post ko dito. Yaan nang wrong grammar. Yaan nang walang sense. Basta kung anong nararamdaman, post lang ng post. Para lang pang-release ng tensyon, ng kaba, ng kung anupaman.
Kanina nag-meet kami ni Yam. Miss ko na rin ang tung na 'to. Day-off ko kasi ngayon sa trabaho tapos gusto kong manood ng Casino Royale. Eh wala na akong makitang hindi pa nakapanood ng movie, kaya tinext ko na lang siya. Ayun, umoo naman bigla. Muntik pa kaming ma-late sa screening dahil late siya pero yaan na nga. Typical James Bond movie ang Casino Royale. Ganun pa rin, imposible ang istorya. Pero nag-work siya for me kasi magaling si Daniel Craig. Nung una akala ko, he will suck as James Bond pero mali ako. Ang tindi ng charisma at sex appeal niya. More importantly, magaling siyang umarte. Nasanay na kasi tayo na si Pierce Brosnan ang James Bond. Yun pala may iba pang pwedeng gawing atake sa role, hindi lang looks-wise kundi acting-wise din.
Magvi-videoke pa sana kami kaso kailangan kong bumalik ng bahay agad kasi ayokong i-miss ang show. Never pa akong umabsent sa panonood ng show ko. Hindi dahil sa kailangang manood pero dahil gusto kong manood. Kahit na mababaw lang ang show, siyempre dapat passionate pa rin ako sa work ko. Mas magkakaroon siguro ng problema pag oks lang kung hindi ako makapanood. Ibig sabihin nun, I don't care for the show eh ayokong mangyari sakin yun.
Kaya lang, yun, biglang na-down ako. Bigla kasi akong tinext ni Lolo. May hindi nagustuhan sa sinulat ko. Siyempre, frustrating on my part 'coz I know I did my best. At the same time, nung Friday pa nakita ang problema pero dahil naka-focus kami sa isang bagay na di naman pala importante, di tuloy nakita ang more important factors na mas hinanap ni Lolo. Tapos yun na nga, meron akong sariling perspective sa item na 'yun kaya yun ang naging slant ko kahit sa pag-conduct ko ng interviews at visuals. Pero hindi siya na-translate on screen at iba nga ang perspective ni Lolo kaya olats din. I explained naman my part and sabi niya explanation accepted, pero nakaka-down pa rin. The issue is more than that kasi para sa akin. Ang deeper issue kasi is na-open yung insecurity ko when it comes to writing VTR scripts. Matagal ko nang isyu 'to mula pa nung nag-start ako sa reality shows. Alam nyo naman na sa fiction scriptwriting talaga ako nagsimula. Oo, fan ako ng reality shows sa States like Survivor or Amazing Race pero minimal ang mga voice-over dun. Mas 'yung mga reality character ang nagsasalita tapos nilalagyan ng support video. Ganun. Ginagamit lang ang voice-over para magsabi ng fact and for transition purposes. Siyempre sa Pilipinas, mas may palabok dapat ang mga VO's. Ang mga VO's dito, dapat tumutulong sa pag-evoke ng anumang klaseng emosyon na gusto mong ma-feel ng audience mo. Hindi enough ang visuals lang. Eh dun ako nahihirapan kasi hindi ako magaling mag-Tagalog, lalo na yung pormal na malalim na mabulaklak na Tagalog. Tingnan nyo naman ang entry na 'to, kaswal na Tagalog lang. :) Actually kahit sa mga scripts na nagawa ko sa pelikula at soap, ganito lang din ang Tagalog ko.:)
Kaka-frustrate lang talaga. I don't want to let my boss down and ayoko ring masabihan na naghuhugas kamay ako. Basta ang dami kong iniisip. Sometimes to comfort myself, iniisip ko na lang na creativity is subjective. Depende na lang talaga yun sa kung anong iniisip na creative ng mga taong mas mataas ang posisyon sa 'yo. Pero siyempre, nasa 'yo pa rin ang mali. Haha! :)
Mahaba na 'to. Next time naman. At hopefully, mas regular na.
Siguro gawin ko na lang talagang random thoughts ang ipu-post ko dito. Yaan nang wrong grammar. Yaan nang walang sense. Basta kung anong nararamdaman, post lang ng post. Para lang pang-release ng tensyon, ng kaba, ng kung anupaman.
Kanina nag-meet kami ni Yam. Miss ko na rin ang tung na 'to. Day-off ko kasi ngayon sa trabaho tapos gusto kong manood ng Casino Royale. Eh wala na akong makitang hindi pa nakapanood ng movie, kaya tinext ko na lang siya. Ayun, umoo naman bigla. Muntik pa kaming ma-late sa screening dahil late siya pero yaan na nga. Typical James Bond movie ang Casino Royale. Ganun pa rin, imposible ang istorya. Pero nag-work siya for me kasi magaling si Daniel Craig. Nung una akala ko, he will suck as James Bond pero mali ako. Ang tindi ng charisma at sex appeal niya. More importantly, magaling siyang umarte. Nasanay na kasi tayo na si Pierce Brosnan ang James Bond. Yun pala may iba pang pwedeng gawing atake sa role, hindi lang looks-wise kundi acting-wise din.
Magvi-videoke pa sana kami kaso kailangan kong bumalik ng bahay agad kasi ayokong i-miss ang show. Never pa akong umabsent sa panonood ng show ko. Hindi dahil sa kailangang manood pero dahil gusto kong manood. Kahit na mababaw lang ang show, siyempre dapat passionate pa rin ako sa work ko. Mas magkakaroon siguro ng problema pag oks lang kung hindi ako makapanood. Ibig sabihin nun, I don't care for the show eh ayokong mangyari sakin yun.
Kaya lang, yun, biglang na-down ako. Bigla kasi akong tinext ni Lolo. May hindi nagustuhan sa sinulat ko. Siyempre, frustrating on my part 'coz I know I did my best. At the same time, nung Friday pa nakita ang problema pero dahil naka-focus kami sa isang bagay na di naman pala importante, di tuloy nakita ang more important factors na mas hinanap ni Lolo. Tapos yun na nga, meron akong sariling perspective sa item na 'yun kaya yun ang naging slant ko kahit sa pag-conduct ko ng interviews at visuals. Pero hindi siya na-translate on screen at iba nga ang perspective ni Lolo kaya olats din. I explained naman my part and sabi niya explanation accepted, pero nakaka-down pa rin. The issue is more than that kasi para sa akin. Ang deeper issue kasi is na-open yung insecurity ko when it comes to writing VTR scripts. Matagal ko nang isyu 'to mula pa nung nag-start ako sa reality shows. Alam nyo naman na sa fiction scriptwriting talaga ako nagsimula. Oo, fan ako ng reality shows sa States like Survivor or Amazing Race pero minimal ang mga voice-over dun. Mas 'yung mga reality character ang nagsasalita tapos nilalagyan ng support video. Ganun. Ginagamit lang ang voice-over para magsabi ng fact and for transition purposes. Siyempre sa Pilipinas, mas may palabok dapat ang mga VO's. Ang mga VO's dito, dapat tumutulong sa pag-evoke ng anumang klaseng emosyon na gusto mong ma-feel ng audience mo. Hindi enough ang visuals lang. Eh dun ako nahihirapan kasi hindi ako magaling mag-Tagalog, lalo na yung pormal na malalim na mabulaklak na Tagalog. Tingnan nyo naman ang entry na 'to, kaswal na Tagalog lang. :) Actually kahit sa mga scripts na nagawa ko sa pelikula at soap, ganito lang din ang Tagalog ko.:)
Kaka-frustrate lang talaga. I don't want to let my boss down and ayoko ring masabihan na naghuhugas kamay ako. Basta ang dami kong iniisip. Sometimes to comfort myself, iniisip ko na lang na creativity is subjective. Depende na lang talaga yun sa kung anong iniisip na creative ng mga taong mas mataas ang posisyon sa 'yo. Pero siyempre, nasa 'yo pa rin ang mali. Haha! :)
Mahaba na 'to. Next time naman. At hopefully, mas regular na.
August 11, 2006
Everybody's Doing It, So Why Can't I?
My last hilarity before I go back to the work force. Warning, this is the most shameless You Tube video I've ever done and alavet! =)
Random Updates:
1. My Fitness First contract already ended last July with no noticeable results. (Heh!) I decided not to renew and instead, enrolled myself in the neighborhood boxing gym. I had my first boxing lessons yesterday and I surprisingly enjoyed it. My hands are numb now though. I'm having difficulty typing this entry.
2. Next week is the start of non-stop PDA work. I'll be going to Subic to monitor the dorm activities of some of the students before they're launched in a grand musical kick-off in Cebu on the 26th. I know Philippine Idol is hot, but I hope PDA will be hotter.
3. Hopefully, I can squeeze in time to attend my 10th year high school reunion on the 25th. Yes, I'm that old. I already bought plane tickets but ain't sure yet whether I can really attend the reunion. Please pray for me! :)
4. And oh, Pangako Sa ‘Yo will be re-shown on Primetime Bida starting Monday. This is my first TV show so it has sentimental value. The creative team plan to have a mini-reunion on the 14th to watch the show that took away our social lives for 2 years. Surely, there will be some reminiscing after.
Random Updates:
1. My Fitness First contract already ended last July with no noticeable results. (Heh!) I decided not to renew and instead, enrolled myself in the neighborhood boxing gym. I had my first boxing lessons yesterday and I surprisingly enjoyed it. My hands are numb now though. I'm having difficulty typing this entry.
2. Next week is the start of non-stop PDA work. I'll be going to Subic to monitor the dorm activities of some of the students before they're launched in a grand musical kick-off in Cebu on the 26th. I know Philippine Idol is hot, but I hope PDA will be hotter.
3. Hopefully, I can squeeze in time to attend my 10th year high school reunion on the 25th. Yes, I'm that old. I already bought plane tickets but ain't sure yet whether I can really attend the reunion. Please pray for me! :)
4. And oh, Pangako Sa ‘Yo will be re-shown on Primetime Bida starting Monday. This is my first TV show so it has sentimental value. The creative team plan to have a mini-reunion on the 14th to watch the show that took away our social lives for 2 years. Surely, there will be some reminiscing after.
February 13, 2006
Snow Bag
Hi guys! That's my good 'ol Jansport bag on Utah snow. I asked Michiko to take a picture of it on snowy ground. Buti pa si Jansport noh, nakatikim na ng snow. Hahahaha! :) Habang ako, nakakulong na rin yata sa Bahay ni Kuya. Hehehe.
Yes, it's still about THE show. If there's one person who needs to be debriefed after the season ends, it should not only be the contestants. It should also be me! Dude, I find it hard to get out of my system what happens inside even after my shift! I don't know. I have some dangerous voyeuristic tendencies I guess, but it's just that you get so involved observing the housemates that you feel like you know them and you're very close friends with them?!? P is for pathetic, I know! :) What's weirder is that even in my sleep or supposedly blank state, I still think of them! AAAAAH!!! :)
One proof is that I only get to be friends with Dulce during that 3-month 2003 My First Romance shoot but when she cried for the first time in the house, I also bawled with her. HECK, NOT ONLY WITH HER! I cry when everyone else inside the house cries! I hate! :) Actually I don't understand why the crying moments always come during my shift. Always during my shift! Lord, I want some babaw moments for a change please!!!! :)
So there you go, my first week inside the house. Seven more weeks to go. Wish me luck! :)
January 18, 2006
Of Passion and Perspiration
As I’m writing this, my housemate Michiko is already in the plane on the way to San Fo. From there, she’ll fly to Utah, the home of Sundance where her film Ang Pagdadalaga Ni Maximo Oliveros is in competition. I’m very excited for Mich. Really. I know she’s just excited to meet Gael Garcia Bernal and Robert Redford and I join her excitement but I’m also excited to find out if her film will win the top plum. I think it has a very strong chance considering gender-sensitive movies are “in” these days in America. Who would have thought the film would go on to compete in Sundance, noh? I mean, remember this blog entry? When they were still trying to raise funds to have the script produced? Galing, di ba! Hay, I’m really proud of my housemate. Sana makagawa rin ako ng pelikula kahit 1/3 lang ng kagandahan ng Maxie.
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Last night I watched Magnolia again on DVD and saw the production diaries. La lang. Biglang na-miss ko ang paggawa ng pelikula. I got inspired by P.T. Anderson kasi. He was so passionate with his work and I long to have that kind of passion in filmmaking again. Jaded na kasi ako eh. I lack the inspiration. Besides, I also think I’m mediocre and I’m not self-deprecating or whatever, okay! Haha! I guess that’s the reason why I mostly do mainstream fare or mainstream TV work in my case. I used to believe, and I wrote it somewhere here, that it’s easier to write art films coz you have the freedom to express and create whatever you want but now, I think mainstream work is easier. May formula kasi eh. And if people dismiss your work, you can always make the excuse that you were just following the formula. Or pwede ring gawing scapegoat ang masa audience! Bad! :) Of course, the requirements of work and the politics behind it can make you insane but materialistic as it may sound, you can always take comfort in the fact that you’re earning a lot. Bad, noh? Ugh, I need to find that P.T. Anderson in me again! Problem is, up to now I still have no clue as to what I really want to pursue. I guess that’s why I just hide in the contrived.
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If I will not be fired before the premiere date, I will be working as one of the story editors in the upcoming Pinoy Big Brother Celebrity Edition. I love reality TV but after attending the meetings this week, I kind of doubt if this show is my forte. I mean what I like about working for reality television is the fact that you create a story out of the raw footages that you culled. Sort of documentary filmmaking, which I love. But here, we also brainstorm for the tasks, for the VTR profiles, for the gimmicks and everything, and I’m clearly lost. But I just want to make a reality story! I hope I’ll find the wits to contribute something worthy in those fields.
***
Last night I watched Magnolia again on DVD and saw the production diaries. La lang. Biglang na-miss ko ang paggawa ng pelikula. I got inspired by P.T. Anderson kasi. He was so passionate with his work and I long to have that kind of passion in filmmaking again. Jaded na kasi ako eh. I lack the inspiration. Besides, I also think I’m mediocre and I’m not self-deprecating or whatever, okay! Haha! I guess that’s the reason why I mostly do mainstream fare or mainstream TV work in my case. I used to believe, and I wrote it somewhere here, that it’s easier to write art films coz you have the freedom to express and create whatever you want but now, I think mainstream work is easier. May formula kasi eh. And if people dismiss your work, you can always make the excuse that you were just following the formula. Or pwede ring gawing scapegoat ang masa audience! Bad! :) Of course, the requirements of work and the politics behind it can make you insane but materialistic as it may sound, you can always take comfort in the fact that you’re earning a lot. Bad, noh? Ugh, I need to find that P.T. Anderson in me again! Problem is, up to now I still have no clue as to what I really want to pursue. I guess that’s why I just hide in the contrived.
***
If I will not be fired before the premiere date, I will be working as one of the story editors in the upcoming Pinoy Big Brother Celebrity Edition. I love reality TV but after attending the meetings this week, I kind of doubt if this show is my forte. I mean what I like about working for reality television is the fact that you create a story out of the raw footages that you culled. Sort of documentary filmmaking, which I love. But here, we also brainstorm for the tasks, for the VTR profiles, for the gimmicks and everything, and I’m clearly lost. But I just want to make a reality story! I hope I’ll find the wits to contribute something worthy in those fields.
November 26, 2005
Nth Random Updates
1. Again, reminding everyone to support alternative cinema. Ang Pagdadalaga ni Maximo Oliveros, an official entry to next year's Sundance Film Festival (yep!) and winner of countless local and international awards, will already have its theater run starting NOVEMBER 30. That's this coming Wednesday na po. It is written lang naman by my housemate (siyempre, proud housemate ako! :D) Michiko Yamamoto. You know you're already big time when you're the answer of a Game Ka Na Ba question right? Well last Friday sealed the deal for Michiko. She was the answer of a Game Ka Na Ba question. Unfortunately, no contestant answered the question right but still, SHE'S THE FREAKIN' ANSWER OF A GAME KA NA BA QUESTION!!! WOW! Again, watch Ang Pagdadalaga ni Maximo Oliveros this Wednesday, November 30.
2. On the other side of cinema, (read: mainstream, baby!) Michiko's other housemates Waterfowl and I just finished writing I Love You Lucky (tentative title) for Star Cinema. Ito po yung pinagkaabalahan ko after Qpids, the teenybopper I was talking about. Hehe. I didn't want to blog about it first because you know how tentative everything is in maintream TV or cinema but since they're having their first shooting day today, siguro naman tuluy-tuloy na. Well sana, keeping my fingers crossed. Hehe. This comic lovestory will be directed by Wenn Deramas with Sandara Park and Joseph Bitangcol as leads. Providing supports are Pokwang, Eugene Domingo, Ang Pagdadalaga's JR Valentin and Qpids loveteams JILWYN and JARLA (Yey, CF! :D) Watch out for it next year!
3. We're hosting another house party tonight - our good friend Emman's birthday party, yihee! Kaso iniwan ako ng mga housemates ko. Hahahaha. Umuwi si Mich ng Bulacan at nawawala sa Rose. Good luck sa akin! Hehehehe :) Pero excited na ako sa party. Antagal ko nang di nakakita ng tao. Hahahaha! Sana, enjoy! :)
4. Watched Sugarfree's gig last night sa Klownz. STEG! :) Will definitely fight for the tickets of the ULTRAELECTROMAGNETICJAM concert this Tuesday sa UP. Imagine, Eheads music, Sponge Cola, Sugarfree, MYMP, Kitchie Nadal, Orange and Lemons and Barbie in one concert?!? That's ecstasy for me. Hahahaha. Panira lang yung Cueshe and 6cyclemind. (Sorry di ako big fan ng bands na yun!) Sana nga makakuha ako ng tickets para AYUZ! :)
2. On the other side of cinema, (read: mainstream, baby!) Michiko's other housemates Waterfowl and I just finished writing I Love You Lucky (tentative title) for Star Cinema. Ito po yung pinagkaabalahan ko after Qpids, the teenybopper I was talking about. Hehe. I didn't want to blog about it first because you know how tentative everything is in maintream TV or cinema but since they're having their first shooting day today, siguro naman tuluy-tuloy na. Well sana, keeping my fingers crossed. Hehe. This comic lovestory will be directed by Wenn Deramas with Sandara Park and Joseph Bitangcol as leads. Providing supports are Pokwang, Eugene Domingo, Ang Pagdadalaga's JR Valentin and Qpids loveteams JILWYN and JARLA (Yey, CF! :D) Watch out for it next year!
3. We're hosting another house party tonight - our good friend Emman's birthday party, yihee! Kaso iniwan ako ng mga housemates ko. Hahahaha. Umuwi si Mich ng Bulacan at nawawala sa Rose. Good luck sa akin! Hehehehe :) Pero excited na ako sa party. Antagal ko nang di nakakita ng tao. Hahahaha! Sana, enjoy! :)
4. Watched Sugarfree's gig last night sa Klownz. STEG! :) Will definitely fight for the tickets of the ULTRAELECTROMAGNETICJAM concert this Tuesday sa UP. Imagine, Eheads music, Sponge Cola, Sugarfree, MYMP, Kitchie Nadal, Orange and Lemons and Barbie in one concert?!? That's ecstasy for me. Hahahaha. Panira lang yung Cueshe and 6cyclemind. (Sorry di ako big fan ng bands na yun!) Sana nga makakuha ako ng tickets para AYUZ! :)
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